~* 孤單 . 隔離 . 失去 . 淡 . *~
She din mean 2. She doesn't mean 2 b like dat. Yet, she reali can't help it.
She's paranoid. She is. She's sensitive. Extremely. Cos simply put it: She's juz a insecure gaL. She's scared.
Haiz well any any ways..(*.*).. she's tired n sick of it all. All the superficiality. Yet she tends 2question herself again..Is she juz being 2sensitive n paranoid? But if there's no signs in 1st place, she won't even ve such feelins. Oh well well haiz. She juz wan 2start on a new lease of life. She juz wan a job be it temp or perm. So she's able 2juz escape from all tis irritating clutches of all. She juz wan a wall of support. A diff kind of wall of support. A diff species. Diff from all tos she has known. Or shd u say she's juz not committed @ all? She juz wans 2change walls from time 2 time. She juz wans varieties. Oh well well wateva..
She saw a bride n groom 2day.. As usual she admires them..She admires E sight of it all..How she wishes dat she's E bride..Yet..She's still wondering whether she's a straight 1..or rather whether she can find her desirable weird 1..mayb she wil neva find such a self desirable exotic 1..sumtimes she wonders if there's sum1 as similar as her out there..No wonder she likes 2watch "Turn Left, Turn Rite". No wonder she likes 2 dream n imagine..
She fils numb. Her parents aren't attendin her convocation. She understands. It's gona b a real bored late1 for her parents. So it's beta in a way 4them not 2attend @ all. Such a pathetic 1. Yet she's kind of used 2such tinks. She's grown used 2it perhaps til she's numb oready. Til E stage of feelin immune 2everytink.
*1 DaY if she has E means. She's not gona stay on here. She's gona migrate 2far far away. Sumwhere where she's able 2reali start afresh n anew. Where no1 noes her. Her WisH. *
posted by Callis @ 6/24/2005 01:06:00 AM
4 Comments:
gal
i feel that you need to talk to someone
do you think you want to talk to me?
face what's coming your way
things are really not that bad
jie
Yeah tis gal does nid a wall of support..24hrs..A normal fren can juz do juz dat much..if she has E means she'l definitely tok2 a psychiatrist..she's bothered by it for yrs n tinks aren't dat simple u noe 2 juz tok it out 2 frens..or rather does she ve frens?she says it out sumtimes but do they even noe dat her deep inner self is actuali concealed n she only exposes her surface self?she can b juz a pretty simple gal @times. she can b juz a complicated1 as well. perhaps all she eva wans is juz dat bit of attention..yet she cant fil E sincere bit@all..not@all..so don assume every1 has dat power2go inside her heart.
Very chim again. Eric also have yet to fully comprehend Farmer's mind.
farmer's mind is kinda hard 2 reali fully comprehend. cos she herself cant even comprehend herself. haha. dats why she rather stays close n b alone wif her soul@times. dats when she's close 2mother nature n earth. dats when she gets enlightened. dats when she understands herself even more. =D
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