~* 淡淡一個人是美丽的 *~

There's tis irritatin superb big pimple on my cheek hehe..kinda pain..gosh..HummpH.. =(
Anyways..

I tink ive made a rite choice 2 b a loner..ive made a rite choice 2 b alone@most times.. it's nice 2 b alone n by urself.. no nuisance. no gossips. Independence can aid in my survival. Human beings r all so fatefully scary. They can b friendly wif ya @ E surface n get so 'cosy' wif u yet deep dwn behind ur back n w/o u even knowing it they can juz gossip abt u wif others behind ur back.

A new fren commented dat i shd b careful n cautious of others when i step out in2 E workin world. cos he tinks dat im kind n ppl wil exploit tis kindness keke. haha im kind..im kind..i tink im juz 2 dwn 2 earth. 2 honest. i doubt i can eva survive in E business world. I can only succeed in my dwn 2 earth close 2 mother nature farmland..He suggested i could consider tos jobs which nid me 2b posted ovaseas..yah ive once tot of dat 2..cos i don like spore. ive no nice memories here. even if ive...E unhappy eeeeEkss 1s wil stil camouflage any happy 1s.

I had nice nice sushi 2day. YummY!! hehe..oways dragging ppl 2ve sushi wif me..keke..=P

Had a rather bad encounter wif bro 2day. I hate it. I hate it when such tinky happens. i was juz mumbling n grumbling 2myself in his presence. i noe im wrong. i noe im @ fault. yah yah. wat kind of home environm m i residing in now when u exchange less than 10words wif ur DaD n bro. Sum ppl juz don kip their promise. made a promise dat u wil try spendin more time wif family. Did u? Did u even try?

* A Loner wil oways remain a Loner...?? A Loner can b lonely@times 2.. *

~* 那天永远是最美好的回忆...*~

~* My ConVoCaTioN ' 2005 !! *~

~* 他 ... *~

*Wah tired sleepy shag fainting arrghh ahhH..!!* (-.-)

went extract 2wisdom teeth yest!! Gdness..ok..whole Gum n tooth tinky started since Fri..gum swollen on fri n when i ate or swallowed saliva my throat pained..mayb cos of ulcer on gums..felt like vomiting on sat..guess i was oready sick..anyways..sunday mornin when i wkup in mornin 2get prepared to go 4tutoring..wile havin brkfast..i realised i could not even open my mouth..serious lah im not exaggerating..dats when i realised "HeY u gota go c a shuai dentist liao keke.." =P

okies so i finali went consult a dentist.. woo hooooO..
My dentist.. hehe.. i was surprised actuali..cos i doonno..okies he's very nice n gentle 2wards u..U NOE..sum may tink he's like a sissy..i mean given E way he speaks n his kind of manners..but tis kind of character/attitude appeals 2me..sumhow..i donno why haha..hmm..nvm..anyways i would b goin back nxt sun again 2 remove E stitches..hehe yeah yeah.. =D
YaH YaH ive had 2wisdom teeth extracted finali..shd b resting@home by rite accordin 2 mama n frens..i din though..i went work 2day..n tok whole day 2 customers..now 1am..feelin pain oready..ive had difficulty brushing teeth n eating haha..gota eats slowly n nibble haha..brush teeth..equivalent 2 not brushing@all..cos i simply cant open mouth big U NOE..oh yah..another tink..E doctor likes 2 say "U NOE..U NOE.."haha..

now i noe.. sum disabled etc..don like ppl 2 giv them $$..as in ok..dat day i went bras brasah alone..then there's tis mid age guy?who has difficulty in walkin..he asked me 2help him fetch 2chairs..so as 2put his toothbrushes on them..ok aft dat i left..yet i went back again..cos i wana buy E toothbrush from him..then he told me its $10..!!n its juz a simple toothbrush exactly similar 2 wat im currently usin..which is only juz $1.50 frankly speakin..its way above market rate u noe..i donno wat 2do @dat instant..cos if i juz walked off n not buy from him wat if i went shoppin aft dat n i bot sumtink 4myself..i would fil guilty..cos dat would mean dat im act more willin2spend on myself loh..i was in dilemma thus i called my fren..he said mayb i could juz giv him sum$$ instead if i donwana buy E toothbrush..so..i returned..n gave him $5..its not alot i noe..but @ least..i donno..anyways..he sort of "scolded"me fiercely..he said he din like ppl 2 giv him $$..i felt..i tink ive hurt his pride..i din mean it U NOE .. i din mean 2..

*Gota Go..tooth hurting..gosh..tml gota work..n ive picked up a new tuition assignment again!! A pri 3 GaL tis time round..heard from agent shes a rather problematic 1..no worries..i wil deal wif her haha..*

2 B UpdateD ah..Yawnss.. (-.-)..

~* 關於那天的雨天夏天 ...(尾巴) *~

UpDaTeS upDateS...!! (*.*)

(-.-) sleepy..wan zzZz..

1 DaY after Convocation..it shd b a brand new start of life..yet sumhow..im stil not able 2 fil E "air of new lease of life".. Convocation=a mark of end of certain stage in life..where's my new lease of life..?????!!!

i kind of drag my feet 2 work everyday..cos its not a formal 1st perm job. cos of E pay which is dat of a part time job. cos its desk bound. cos its not wat ive liked. n E list goes on n on..haizz..a big sighs..in other words..im stil aimless in life..im stil dat lost..AS USUAL..arrghh..

was feelin so sianz yest mornin n aftern..donno why..then went online..a fren said she wana attend my convo..@ dat instant i was reali touched..reali. was even more touched when i reali saw them aft E ceremony..act felt paisehs cos they gota spend $$ on cab fare..my mood got beta actuali aft she told me she wana attend my convo..=D

i felt bad as well cos i tink my parents were kind of bored yest..they gota wait 4me 2 finish lingering ard wif frens n takin pics..i noe they were tired..

Disappointed as well..wif a person. understandable if he's not willin2attend cos i noe it's act a rather boring 1..i won't bother2force him 2go though..since he said hes busy wif CCA. wateva men. don wan tok 2much abt tis le. im juz disappointed. im not petty. its juz dat..ah..nvm.

was chatting on fone wif tis fren last nite. miracle. i act chit chatted on fone. anyways. i was askin him how he would define good frens. best frens. cos i told him ive no best frens. ive no gd frens. he said its hard2survive w/o frens. he oso told me dat @times he felt dat E connection betw him n frens was lost. supposedly perceived 2b good frens yet it only appears 2b so on surface. no common topics 2tok abt betw frens+no emotional connectivity+feeling distanced from each other+seldom mitup n contact each other=would u even consider E 2 of u 2b gd/best frens?

donno wat im babbling abt. im tired. brain not wkin again. nid zzz. 1.30am oreadi.. tml gota work. sianz. wateva it is. i feel happy alone juz as well. i don anytink wrong wif dat.

where's my passion in life?where's my life goal?wat exactly do i wan in life?where would i b goin nxt?
* It all remains an unsolved mystery. *

~* 又是一個慢慢的開始...*~

*YawNNnzzZ...* (-.-)

Gona zzzZ soon or else reali reali cant tahan anymore..everyday go office doze off 1..tink i shd b goin doctor soon reali shd ve a thorough checkup soon le..tink ive lotsa ailments like dat..hmMm..

Anyways..tis perm staff said im soft spoken, gentle n nice nice kind.."The Good among the Good, The Bad among the Bad.." latter means i may face risks of gana lost out 2 tos cunning ppl in the workin world..yah i agree..im 2 dwn 2 earth n innocent keke..haiz..but wat 2do..im juz like dat..she said no worries i wil change 1 aft ive rotted long in tis workin world..yah..only time wil tell bah.. (*.*) ..

Reciproxity..ve i achieved dat? or M i stil so focused on myself dat i stil tend 2 tk ppl 4granted..?? well wateva it is i only noe dat "if u treat me well, no worries 1 cos i wil oso treat u nice nice back 1 loh..u treat me bad then ok dats it i won't eva treat u nice in return." As simple as dat! My self well so called principle. HaHa. Craps men.

ZZZzzzZ..

~* 星星 *~

whole body aching..tml 9am tuition again..2day juz had tuition 2..donno why i pack my life wif so many tinks..v tired leh..fever on n off..on n off..sianz..gona zzz soon v tired..haiz.. (-.-)

strolled 2 compasspoint aft diner 2buy bread bread nice nice fav bread..strolled home..but there's no stars 2nite..realised i actuali kinda njoy NITE out..NITE strollin..the smell @ NITE..NITE breeze..

NiTes NiTes..(*.*)

~* 雨天的尾巴...*~

I can consider myself as okies now..cos im occupied wif sum stuff now so i seldom ve chances 2 let my mind wander oready..i guess when 1 has a direction in life n noes wat he or she wans then a sort of guide is @least present in life..i kind of noe E priorities in my life now n im tryin 2 work slowly 2wards dat.. *YEaH YeaH* Fever's here again..i like 2 b sick..i donno why..its a terrible feelin but i sumhow enjoy it haha..* Weird weird me!* Gota zzzzzzZZ oready.. (-.-)

~* 美好的回忆 *~

*Mei Nu Mei Nu* wor keke..not me lah haha im tokin abt my JiE wor keke..She's nice nice 1..single Gooood GoooooD guys out there (Very very the rare ah haha) whos interested in her hoh gota go tru me hoh n my assessment keke..

Haven seen jie for so long oready..finally got 2 mit her yest..had OUR Thai kitchen once again yummy yum yum haha our dates oways there 1 hehe.. *我們之間的愛情合約...*