~* BluresT Me !! ComPLiCateD me !! ConTraDictorY mE !!*~

Guess when it cums 2 "Who's E blurest of them all?" , I'm E blurest of them all.
I threw away a cheque. Put it in a plastic bag. Threw away E plastic bag forgetting all abt E cheque. Only realised when i was in town wantin 2 deposit. Luckily Fren helped me. Thanks.

Nxt tink. Ive got flight timings mixed up. tot its 11am. woke up extremely early pack bag. in E end..mama said 11pm. *FainTs* so went market wif her. but felt so uncomfortable. cos stomach not feelin good. menses. plus diarrhoea. Idoit. Idoit. Idoit. Idoit. Idoit.

My mood extremely Idoitic now.
Cos i wan cry. I oready wan cry long time ago. oso donno why.
On bus yest. Frens sitting juz behind me. sumhow mid of bus journey when i wasn't tokin 2them, i suddenly felt.. Lonely. Lonely. Tired.
Realised ive been like a clown. Been acting like a clown. Entertaining ppl ard me. Ive not been my real true self all along. I'm juz putting on a brave false front infront of others. Suddenly i donno who's Huiyi. i reali donno. I wan cry now. I said tinks which act don represent my true emotions n intentions @ all. I wan cry. I'm reali v lonely. uve your own grp of frens. u donve time 4me. u n him n her n them n me.

i juz called her. She agreed wif me. dat i donno wat im doin. i mk ppl v confused. I tink so 2.

*I'm tired of all again. My hopes in life R oways like a roller coaster. Ups n downs. Ups ups downs downs*

Stay in China 4good lah. Don eva wana cumbk anymore.