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ReaLised lately i love 2 zzZZZZzz... zzzzzz on bus..zzzz on train...zzzz where eva i go n stop..keke sounds like a pig..wake up late..notink unusual 1 mite say..cos i used 2 wkup superb early nxt mornin no matter how late i zzzzz E nite b4..i juz din dat much of importance on zzZZzz...now..i juz wan zzZZZ..wheneva i can..24hrs..1whole week..1whole month..4eva.. (-.-)

Guess my fren was rite..abt my heavy heart n E msn nick tinky..she said i felt dat way cos i realised ive actuali lost a support..emotional support i guess?i donno..i guess it's juz like..losing an invisible indirect support..u don ve 2 like or love him..there's no nid 4me 2develop any feelings 4him..he doesn't ve 2 tell me or make it clear verbally dat he likes me..i donve2noe his intentions..i donve 2noe if he likes me not..as long as his actions show some of his care n concern..my heart wil b warmed..well..@least..i don deny i m actuali a rather lonely soul..so lonely dat i juz fil like cryin 4myself @times..but amidst such feelings of loneliness..when u noe dat @least there's stil E presence of sum care n concern by E opp party..it does help 2warm up E soul n heart abit..it does..well..under ambiguous intentions of E other party..when such initial ambiguous intentions R made known..E support wil inevitably lose its effect on E lonely soul..n E lonely soul, once clear of situation, wil tend 2b influenced as well..haizz..tis soul juz nids time 4adjustment..she wil b fine..she's juz more easily emotionally upset esp during tis recent phase..when everytink ard her is juz so so unsettled..n she's stil in a loss pertaining 2her life..

E mention of her life..everyday she's juz not happy wif her own life..she wans sumtink diff..sumtink fresh..she juz can't wait 2ve a brand new lease of life..yet..she juz cant seem 2get started on workin 2wards such new lease of life..well..oh well..she's juz procrastinating..wif regard2everytink..practicali everytink..

She likes 2touch people..she used 2like2do dat..2frens..she has toned dwn lately haha..cos sum of her frens told her they don like it n its kind of gross..well well..anyw she only likes 2touch a particular sum1 now..sumhow when they hold hands..she juz feels..E warmth..she doesn't care abt E looks from others when they hold hands..she admired a gal from NUS..tis gal is juz so cool..E way she looks @others..woooO..ive fantasized abt kissing her..i like her..i told my wife abt tis n she said actuali she has such tots @times as well..kiss a gal..but cum2tink of it..yesh..i get a diff kind of feeling when i touch her..as compared 2E other gal frens..yet..i don tink i would eva kiss her...cos she's juz not E 1..well well well..up til now im not attracted 2any guy@all...i mean instead of being attracted 2them, i actuali detest them more n more..i find them juz a sore in E eyes..haha.."TIAN AH..WO SHI ZHEN CHANG DE MAH..??!!!"

wateva it is..juz hope tml Friday ends soon..cos havin 2tuition tml!!hate havin tuition@nite cos dat would simply mean i cant njoy my 1hr dinner haha..after friday..Sat: here i cum my NUS beloved grilled fish haha..then Sun: Here i cum! E small escape from sianzzzZ spore!!sumtimes wonder if i would miss spore if i reali get 2migrate 1day..cos when it cums 2 tis migrating tinky im actuali kinda heartless "BU LIU REN HE QIN HAHA"

*Sumtimes a heartless soul mite actuali turn out 2b E happier 1 instead..*

~2 B CONTINUED AFTER I RETURN FROM BEIJING..WHO NOES..MAYB I MITE B STAYING THERE 4 GOOD AH..KEKEKE.. =p ~