~* Im LearninG 2 STeP ouT!! LearninG 2mk 1st steP ouT!! *~

*Yeahh..im back again..ive mk my 1st move. 1st step. 1st decision. aft long long procrastination. yeah procrastination is kinda bad u noe. it delays everytink.*

juz did tis personality test in my cleo mag. haha. donno accurate not loh. 1moment say im introvert. 1moment say im extrovert. haha. ive split personality. which ive realised long time ago myself n tru frens' mouths. woo hoo so its confirmed now.

ok. 2 Lays. *winks winks* why i ran away halfway 4dat therapist orientation..hmm i guess i cant reali tell u why..E exact reason..i guess its cos of environmental influence plus my emotional impulse..i wasn't comfortable wif E way they put us candidates 2 test..Each of us gota tk turns 2 mk use of E toys there 2interact wif E kid..in front of E ang moh boss n other candidates..u gota b u noe dat kind of loud..loud expression n reaction..u gota b a fun 1..im 2 soft spoken i guess i couldn't mit up 2dat..anyways i oso din noe how 2describe..its like u noe..if u don like it in 1st place be it environment or wat u wun fil comfortable n u wun fil fitted in..u wil juz noe it rite if u don like it..i left halfway. i noe i would only b forcing myself 2stay if i ve stayed n i wun perform well anyways under dat circumstance. so yah haha.

Anyways heard from Fren dat a fren fils like quitting her current therapist job cos from start of work til now..i guess few mths le ba..she has been doin juz admin work..mostly admin stuff if i din rememb wrongly..anyways cos hers is a newly established company..clients not in yet..hmm..thus cant reali do much of therapeutic stuff bah..hmm..

I agreed wif Jie. Lotsa jobs out there 4us. it ain't tough 2 land urself in a job i guess. it all lies wif whether u wan it or not. ur interest level. dats reali reali impt.

anyways. yah. ive sent application 4 MOE teaching. finali. ive finali mk my 1st step out in getting sumtink done!!haha. n yah. ive decided 2reject (yet again!!)another job offer. as sales exec @parkmall 4tis established high end furniture design company. which i tink commission gona b real high since their sofa alone costs $8000+!!haha. anyways. im juz a simple gal. not highly ambitious. juz wan ve a simple job i like wif reasonable pay. cant b 2 extrovert a job since im oso introvert @heart as well haha. complicated huh. of course i tend 2compare myself most of times wif others n ppl ard me. like my big wife who wans 2 n am eager 2earn big bucks n money. i may tend 2 compare my future fixed pay wif her flexible big bucks pay. but hey i guess. being comfortable wif wateva ya doin stil accounts 4major share bah. m i makin any sense?i guess so bah haha. tired liao anyways.

okies..i hope everytink wil b settled by december..*Good LucksS* 2me. 2my loved frens. haha went bk nus n vernice said i look like sec sch kid. hmm. yah im stil young. i can afford 2 mk choices n mistakes. accumulate experience n learn from mistakes. i like wat RX said. *U gota mk E 1st step. Else u neva noe wat u wan n m gd in.* 1st step. 1st step lingers in my mind. it kinds of enlighten me. it kinds of put a slap in my face. Hey wake up GaL!!haha. yah.

Wateva it is. its oways a pity n pain n waste 2reject sumtink good dat cumz 2ya doorstep. but well alas. dats life. full of choices. full of opportunity costs blah blah. LifE.

*realised its my mistake. shdn't ve picked fault @ bro. Sori. Din mean it.*
Nites. Hope my life gets organised soon soon soon. b4 coming of 2006..!!