~* A Weak HearT ... *~

I'm having a weak heart i tink..ok put it tis way..ive a rather bad premonition..my heart's getting weaker as days pass..not my imagination..though im oways imaging..(dat im oways inviting my mediacorp frens like vincent ng 2my hse..n my bro's mouth wil drop opened wif awesome envy hehehe..wo feng le..=P) oways ve terrible headache n sharp pain @back of head wheneva i wkup in morning in past..now E prob persists..n i oways tell myself aiya its cos of ya stupid laoya pillow lah..or mayb cos ive been staying up late omost every nite eyes glued 2TV til wee hrs..=P but anyways..yah..then i fil v lethargic everyday..doze off on mrt n bus fast..wkup feeling totali exhausted as if my whole soul has actuali left my body n did lotsa intense stuff b4 coming back 2my body..cos my whole body wil ache terribly n my whole head terribly wobbly heavy pain giddy aft i wkup from juz a short doze..2day..as i stepped on2 E escalator..all of a sudden everytink turned black instantly..4a moment i couldn't reali stand straight n i felt giddy..as if im gona fall n faint any moment..yet..in an instant..v quickly shortly aft dat..i regained composure..n everytink back 2normal..but i felt v tired..no strength..v weird..@tis instant when im typing tis..i suddenly tink abt spirits..ive been possessed??

...more...i cant seem 2 jog v well recently..as compared2past..my heart seems 2b failing..i can actuali fil my heart's efficiency slowing dwn..not pumping as much blood as b4..ive a feeling i may juz collapse 1day..but mayb cos i haven't been joggin dat often n regularly ba..only do it when i fil like it..mayb dats why not able perform 2optimum as compared2past bah..anyways told mama juz nw..as usual as she said me low blood pressure donve enuff blood loh..xue bu gou..yah..few yrs back doctor said ive extreme low blood pressure..mayb its even lower now hahaha..1day shd go4 whole body checkup ah..

A pretty long entry on heart huh haha. back 2 interviews. pretty sianz2tok abt it. vague impression anyw. ok dat customer relation 1. interviewed by a male. spoke 2me in english. pretty gd tru out. He seems rather nice. confirmed me onspot. then he brot me 2c another female. cos nid converse in chinese wif her. Damn. shit. haha. i noe my chinese cant mk it 1. i oso donno why i actuali ve a phobia of conversing in chinese now. anyw i guess my chinese conversation wif dat WOMAN was in a mess. she asked me abt my principles in life. Yuan Ze. i was like shit. asked me tis kind of tinky. i donno how 2crap in chinese loh. i only noe how 2reply in english. idoit her. anyways she said they wil call me back. haha. i don giv a darn anyw.

Then. dat elite marketin job. wat a bullshit as well. its exactly a knock on ppl's door beg them buy ya product kind of stuff. don mit target no pay. crazy. n i dislike dat director or wateva he is who interviewed me. looks like pervert. sound like pervert as well. eeeks. n dat cust serv exec. all bullshit. its actuali a great eastern personnel. i hate insurance ppl. anyw i did sum personality test as well. result: im sociable. haha. erm well well. lets juz say ive split personality yah. anyways jobs suitable4me: Nursing, teaching, tour guide, sales. yahh. so the me. exactly wat i like loh. Next: managerial posts. hmm..ok lah..ive tis bit of ambitious trait in me. wanting2mk it big. reputation. Followed by: artistic jobs. haha true true. i like arts. if its not becos my design skills lousy..i may ve gone on 2 Lasalle or NAFA..hmm..my path would b diff now if dats E case..(",)

He is utterly totali IRRITATING. i donwan my path 2b crossed wif his anymore again. i tot it shd b rather obvious dat i din reply. yet same msg oways cums. irritating. irritating. eeeeeekkkssss.

Got letter of confirmation for MOE interv yest. interv date SO THE LATE. but act cum2 tink of it. i actuali ve shudders when i tink abt teaching. i juz donve confidence in my own level of academic knowledge. other than dat..my ok level stil there..n chinese..oh men..i can juz die. but anyways..its not a must dat i muz die die get MOE employment.. but anyw they may not wan me as well loh..but then again..i simply cant tink of anytink else im interested in..yahh..

on way home 2day..image of "Zai Zai look alike" appears in my mind..actuali not juz 2day lah..its actuali everyday hehe..haha..keke..siao. no lah. juz dat once awile. E face wil juz seep in my mind suddenly. yah.. i was hoping 2bump in2 him again. well. if fate permits. if fate permits, then its reali fate. reali fate. n nxt time round if E fate is reali here, i do do do do hope u wil juz open ur mouth Miss Huiyi n say "Hi u from NUS rite?"hahahaha..jian. but then again. i donwan noe wat i donwan 2noe. else i would b superb disappointed. well...fate might not cum ultimately anyways. so why m i tinkin so much.

i love my yoga class. as usual dat skinny woman cant stretch hahaha..i tink im pickin on her. yah i am pickin on her. so wat.

kinda interested in tis volunteer tinky i chanced upon in media recently. shall tk action regarding it soon. *Yawns..* a long post again.