~* Sianz ...*~

Haiz...now@work..waitin 4calls..but no calls oso nvm..i only noe dat im v tired 2day..nid my ample rest n sleep..=( brain not functioning when im tired n shag..haiz..=(

Some Updates 1st.
2days ago superb late4work. As usual i like2xplore new buses. took 132 instead of usual 165. realised its goin in wrong direction. panicked n alighted1stop later. Then saw 153. tink E nos looks rather familiar. so w/o any hesitation took E bus. Darn it haha. haiz. it went all E way2Toa Payoh Bukit Merah area!!Chumz..in end took cab rushed dwn2wkplace. wasted $7 ova notink!!late 4 half an hr..haiz.short of $3.50 earning..total loss of $10.50 v v Sads..=( Yest late 15mins 4wk again..2day ok lah managed2reach on time..phew..not gona go4tuition 2day lah..v tired..v sianz..wan go hm pei mama eat diner yeah..miss her food haha..sound as if v long neva ve her cookin..haha..im juz s0o homely kind haha..

more updates..did sumtink v blur n foolish again..slotted $160 tuition fee in pages of lib book..returned E book w/o even knowin theres $$ inside haiz..only realised 20mins later when i was on way home..rushed back to lib..luckily in end managed2get back $$..lucky book not shelved yet phew else i can reali cry on spot loh..=( Anyways Big wife was sayin dat i shd b more careful nxt time..not juz nxt time but for many other times as well loh..saves all E resultant troubles loh..

Yest gatherin wif galfrens..diner..was tellin them abt tis..they were sayin luck seems2b wif me all E time..oways lose sumtink but in end stil get back E lost tinky..haha they said i seem 2ve a guardian angel guarding ova me..hmm..(",) yah..n i was so HAPPY u noe..they gave me tis reali big big present..ive told big wife b4 dat ive neva received a big big big parcel n ive oways admired tos wif such enormous parcels..i din expect 2get a nice nice parcel 4my 22nd birthday!!!*A WIDE BIG GRIN* 2day go home wil open my big gift slowly..kekeke..*GRIN*

HAIZ IDOITIC JOB. 2B CONTINUED..=(

hp terribly spoilt..sads men..=(

*struggling 2 c all my incoming sms now..saw tis missed call nos..realised its JS's..i called him..a gal picked up..

~* UPDaTeS ... *~

2DaY woke up kinda late.. Donno why felt so sleepy n tired n shag tis few days..or rather everyday.. til extent dat im kinda used 2it oready..felt rather peaceful2day..no climax in mood..calm n peaceful which is rather gd then..had 2meals as usual brkfast n lunch no brunch in my dictionary..n though i woke up@lunch time haha who cares men..aft dat mopped floor..haha im like Cinderalla..or Yip's family's slave..mama went mahjong..wile i do hsehold chores..but hey ive oways liked doin hsehold chores..kippin my hse clean AND NEAT ESPECIALLY!!im a neat freak i gota admit..went in2my bro's room n i wan *Faints!* haha..

Starting 1month temp customer service@ Singtel customer contact/call center..juz pray i'l b ok..beta do sum research on their Hi!cards..not 2worried abt socialising wif ppl there though..anyw they all seem nice..oready could hit it off well wif 1 of E perm staff there liao..though i haven even started work haha..but haiz..2006 coming..n im stil holdin on 2a temp 1..but beta than notink ba..summore may ve chance converted 2perm..@least got sumtink2fall back on heeess..=P

Fren told me abt JS. ppl oways say Singaporean guys r a boring lot. i say singaporean guys r a scary lot. why?cos u neva noe wats behind their face masks..they can b Mr Nice Nice on surface but deep dwn..they r juz sum cheaters..Like him. acted like 1 innocent Mr Nice Nice low self esteem guy whos gd 2 ALL gals havin acceptable asserts. 2speak E truth hes juz another cheater who studies in Arts fac. guys in arts fac. lotsa galfrens. so disgusting. ok im biased. guys in other fac may not be gd as well. can b cheaters as well. but well. i tink hes v cheap. oh pardon me 4being so crude. my deep hatred 4 them is so deep til..i donno how 2continue. 3yrs Campus: Memories of fun, happiness, sadness, disappointment, FEAR etc. its Mr Lim TN who started everytink.

i tink my Big wife kinda noes me well inside n outside..she understands why i would rather b alone@most times..i get hurt v v easily ova slightest tink. since young i was bein teased n looked dwn upon by tos dad's idoitic relatives. pri sch i was a juz low profile quiet shy oways gana bullied by others n teachers gal. sec sch hurt by tis another guy oso called JS. JC being called a bitch by ppl whom ive offended. all tis accumulation n accumulation. Did i ultimately get stronger? i donno..mayb get weirder n hate spore even more. i get hurt easily thus i loathe rejection, dejection n disappointment. I cried on mrt dat day aft watchin mv alone. it was a brkthru in my life loneliness. i guess my loneliness has reached its limit til extent dat im so so lonely. mayb dats why i finally broke dwn in public. 2remain alone is my own choice. tis yrs ive only seen E -ve faces of human beings. i don regret my decision all tis wile 2 remain alone4most of time. no regrets. but i muz say watching mv alone is nice..=D

ve been Venturing alone sumtime oready..n i wil continue dat..plus claiming a new identity pass now..i tink im startin 2 c sum light in my life path..

*im gona continue holdin on 2my lone ranger pass. Wu Sim frens wil b welcomed in her path. ingenuine frens pls GET LOST n don eva step in2 her path. Arigato..*

~* iTs Kinda sweeT i Tink... *~

Juz finished watching star awards 2005. Yeah i rememb when i was younger, i used 2 b so excited ova tis haha. Then will ve early dinner so could concentrate on juz watching it on tv haha. As if im in it like dat. mama would oso b excited. we would both b excited n glued 2Tv. hehe. funny. n i only lookout 4 my beloved Fann. Yeah ppl who noe me shd noe dat i love her. ofcourse im not like tos young childish fans. im a mature fan haha. E part which Chris gave fann a kiss on forehead b4 he went onstage 2get his prize...n fann went woo ahh..blushed..i tink its kinda sweet..its kinda sweet of him..=)

Finished watching TV..now back 2reality. Year's ending soon. 2006 coming. A brand new yr. i wonder wat lies ahead. i juz hope i wil juz stop my terrible procrastinating habit. Anyways.. oso glad dat me n Lays ve sorted out E personal stuff betw us both..its stil E best 2communicate when theres doubts betw u n fren..stil E best 2 b truthful 2each other..say out frankly ur opinions,tots, dislikes n likes abt each other. only when theres no secret wil a frenship/ relationship b truthful n deep.

Fann and Christopher..